I was laying down when I felt the shadow move over, hovering like a dark cloud.. at least that is how I imagined it. I was on my stomach and so I didn’t actually see it. I felt it, pushing heavy at my back. I felt it envelope my head, almost wrapping around and had a more distinct feeling of being pushed down. I felt the bed indent and then my body sink in.. then I slipped through. For a few moments I was looking at a woman, her back was to me and her head was covered. I was in a form, but I’m not so sure it was mine.. it didn’t feel quite normal. I looked over her shoulder to see what she was holding. It was a baby, skin burned black.. charred but still recognizable. The baby was in a white cloth, black bits flaked on it in spots. She didn’t seem to be of any emotion, the woman.. which I thought was odd. I felt myself snap back to where I was laying. I got up to walk around, clear my head a bit.. I still didn’t feel quite right. What had just happened?
This slip occurred sometime last week or just before. My fellow hedger mentioned how I’d been getting much fire recently. This is so true, I’ve had fire on the altar, fire in Nelia, fire in the cards, and then this. There is so much that I’ve been working with in shadow, but I think it might be a good idea to look at this element in my life a bit more closely once I reach Midsummer with (hopefully) the passing of that work. I am thinking on trying a new journeying technique, more on that later.. but in discussing it with her, she presented me with some lovely bits from her last trip. There was this one particular stone she’d brought to me that I was strongly drawn to. I originally was thinking on using a hag stone and a new piece of protective jewelry (for said new trial) in place of my quartz for water scrying, but I decided on this stone instead. Something about the coloring and the texture makes me think of lava rock. I plan to call the spirits of the land, its place, to it beforehand; maybe pass it through the candle flame, and see what I can see. I am curious to find what what it will bring..