I don’t know, but sometimes I worry about his absence.. but I guess it really hasn’t been that long, I just seem to be noticing it more now for some reason. Let me explain.. since I was a child, off and on and only occasionally, I would see this impression of a man. I am almost always awake (or he wakes me up), almost always in my bedroom (no matter where in life), and I never know why he is there. A warning? A watcher? An ancestor? Other? Again, I just don’t know.. oh, and even though I can never see him clearly, the impression of his clothing makes me think of Little House on the Prairie.
The first time I remember him was when I was around five. I woke to him just sitting on the end of my bed. I remember sliding up to the very top and trying to scream for my mother, but I was just too scared to get the words out. I feel like I had to have seen him at some point in between then and this next, but I cannot recall it. The next clear memory of him was when I was with the ex-husband. I was in bed reading when someone grabbed my foot. I saw a shadow but the ex was asleep beside me. I turned back to look and there he was standing by the bed end and then at some point he was gone.
Past that there were other infrequent visits here and there, but then last year he visited quite frequently.. always standing in the same spot at my closet door with the exception of one kitchen visit. Then came the bloody lady, followed by much activity, and his visits just stopped. The husband commented (and then quickly stated it must have been a shadow) that he thought he saw a man going up the stairs one night.. I wonder if that was him?