what to do


I was constantly running a little late or a little early this season. The season itself just didn’t feel like the season and I seem to be completely thrown off. I made it to the altar quite past the Yuletide but then again, as you know, I never seem to be good at keeping schedules. I finally just snuck off to sit in some quiet one off day of no particular consequence amongst all the goings on. My brain was full and I’d had a sense of being under fire but no sense of where it was coming from.. I just wanted to take a breath.

Hello my lovelies.. yes, I know it has been awhile and I find myself heavy of mind..

I lit the room full of candles, making my amends for the long absence, and then I laid out my many offerings – whiskey, herbs, Florida water. Then I just sat in the silence for a bit.. what to do, what to do. I needed to sort out my thoughts and this odd unexplained feeling of the impending before I formed the question. I idly stroked Mother Bear, blowing the incense smoke in her direction. I had the random thought that owl had slipped me again.

Something is being put to my direction, I can feel it.. like a quiet stabbing. I just don’t know,  or maybe I’d just had enough festivities and was too tired to sort it. I felt a stirring, and so I lay the cards..

From the Wildwood Tarot..

Five of arrows, frustration..a goat with long curving horns and a wildly tangled coat leaps upward into the sky.. around it are four arrows, none of which strike it.. unfocused energy leads to the archer releasing inaccurate arrows or lashing out in an uncontrolled manner and missing the target.. if others are attempting to cause distractions, you will only feed their ego and help their cause by reacting and acknowledging their efforts.. take a deep breath and steady your mind.. see the futility of games played against you and go about your business.. frustration is ungrounded energy..

Am I the goat or the archer.. or maybe I am both??

King of stones, wolf.. comfortable in the dark and cold of winter, it was seen as the guardian of the dead on their journey through the night to the otherworld.. love of the natural world guides much of what you do.. security brings pleasure.. cocoon yourself away from outside influences..

I was getting distracted again.. falsely greener grass and somethings shiny.. but they are not true, or not my true I should say..

The Ancestor, placed at the nexus point between the passing winter and the coming spring.. the mornng is clear and frosty with the first glimmer of dawn shimmering on the horizon where the new moon hangs with the morning star, representing a new day and a reawakened soul.. the trees act as a reminder to follow the path..

I know what I need to do.. Bear has been whispering it all this time..

And in shadow, the Ace of Stones.. the labyrinth..

This card reminds me so much of a specific person that it is hard to keep it separate in my mind.. is it representative of them or am I just making that association from a snapshot in time.. the spirits seen that day and what potential could be or could be lost.. I am not the one to say.. that path is not mine to choose..



10 thoughts on “what to do

  1. Your post has just helped me, and it might be that in so doing, has shown me a way to be of some small help to you. First, I have been looking to learn how to read tarot cards for a while … I’ve been waiting to see images of a deck that actually spoke to me. I have had my eye on the Archeon deck for about the last month; but although it fascinates me, it hasn’t locked my attention to it the way the picture of your Wildwood cards just did. I have just found my first tarot deck; and I am very thankful for this!

    After I saw the picture, I immediately looked the deck up online, and discovered two things that decided me on it: the inspirational source for the deck drawing on Celtic and shamanic concepts; and that John Matthews was involved in this deck’s creation. This ran through my mind as I read the rest of your post; and your question about whether or not you are the archer, the goat, or both drew my attention. There is a theory when it comes to dreaming that each character in a dream is a reflection of the dreamer – it is this concept that came to my mind when I read your question. Also, in looking at the card and the description, although I am not familiar with tarot, I would offer this, as well: the goat’s reaction is as uncontrolled as the archer’s action. The lack of control, the instinct, favors the target in this case more than the hunter. If you are both, then it would be wise to keep that in mind, I think.

    I hope you got a great start into 2016; and hope this year and the years that follow will bring you closer to what you seek 🙂

    1. I am thinking hard in your words.. Very much so, just so you know those words are very helpful and resonate a truth in me that I will have to explore further my friend..

      On a lighter note, I love this deck though u have and buy many (mostly for artwork, occasionally I am directed to pick certain ones up) but this one is my working deck.. I too was swayed by images I saw on another blog and it always felt right. In reading , I find that I like to let the images speak to me first and then actually read the cards “book” description.. Sometime the book brings me a further insight but I always trust what the images being to mind first..

      Sent from my iPhone


      1. I hope what I had to offer will wind up helping you at least as much as your posting the picture of your cards helped me, if not more so 🙂 I have some experience when it comes to casting runes … I am hoping tarot will show me a different side of wisdom-gathering and contemplation.

        The process you outlined for choosing tarot decks is, oddly enough, exactly what I have done … it would seem I’m on a good track here 🙂

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s