It seems to me that we spend most of our time looking back at the what ifs or gazing forward in anticipation of the one day I wills. I have certainly caught myself up in these more than I care to admit.. and sometimes the what ifs can really be most brutal. With so much fear and uncertainty in our world at the moment, it seems very easy to do. Here’s the thing though, life fundamentally is full of uncertain and that moment is what is most important.. it is where you make those choices to focus on what best moves you forward.
Another thing I have noticed, disheartening as it is, is that when I do stop to take a breath of observation.. I feel like I still see far too much indifference. Change is definitely needed.. and Mother Nature as we all have come to respect in her great beauty and rhythms, is an excellent balancer. I hold strong in this.
I believe on some level we are all aware of these cycles, even when we choose to look away. I live in hope that after everything, this shifting towards better will continue to gain movement. As individuals, we can make seemingly small choices that together, can add up to so much more. Every little bit counts, we are all connected in this web.
The thing about slowing down, for me personally, is that it has been an amazing exercise in awareness of my immediate. I am using this time to further streamline my everyday. I am moving my daily into cleaner, healthier, more sustainable in any small way I can. I am learning to grow some of my own food and that which cannot be squeezed into my teeny garden, I am trying to make better choices on.
In looking around I realized that I am still living in more excess than what I feel aligns with my authentic self.. not just in physical stuff but also in squandered time and the people I let into my life. I am finding that more fine tuning is needed.. if I want to call in positive movement, it is important to me to reflect that I am doing the work necessary towards what I am trying to build. Isn’t it funny how these deep realizations sneak up on you by just setting the smaller things in order?