Focus on what works.. this was my card draw. Where do I start? There’s my cozy home, full off all the things that bring joy and what the husband affectionately refers to as the witchy junk shop. Speaking of – there’s my best husband in the world who I adore even more than our fancy pants coffee machine (if you knew my love of coffee, that’s something special).
I have the most loving giant monster kitties. There’s enough of a paycheck for us all to eat and live comfortably.. something I am grateful for because it wasn’t always so. I have a strong spiritual practice that provides me with what is needed. I have a really good life. So, basically, I was a bit unsure (other than fine tuning my manifestation list) on how to fully embrace this card.. that was until the full moon rolled around.
I am a big believer in always seeking, always learning.. even if I am not exactly sure it will be a fit for me. It enables me the chance to embrace a bit of new, or at least rule out what doesn’t move me. With this in mind, I decided to continue on with the work of the previous full moon. After all, I felt like I was still seeing ripples of movement from it.
Although I see it as more of a jumping off point, with parts of it guiding a loose framework, I want to really work through the original process a few more times. I would like to get a better feel for what is (and is not) fitting with ease.
Intuitively I feel like simplifying the meditation and allowing the different aspects of the ritual flow in hand with the entire cycle instead of cramming all the tasks into one go would be better. I think this would not only allow for focus where needed in any particular place in the cycle but also work more in hand with the moon’s energies. I am excited to see how this evolves.
”Where we believe what is given to us by the earth is all we really need to live happy and healthy lives” – Tamed Wild
Years ago I wrote on feeling the draw towards working with crystals after years of being a rock/shell/feather dedicant. I had been picking up one here and there, but with so many clouds around sourcing I never fully immersed. I am not militant by any means in this.. we do the best that we can to care for Mother Earth, and for every person that can’t be everything. I release this.
Recently I revisited, the idea that crystals are the bones of the earth floating about. I have a couple of local (ish) people/places of trust and when asked for a simpler start I was directed to Tamed Wild. I couldn’t find sourcing information, but I very much like that they are partnered with the American Forests fund. Why not let the universe decide what’s needed?
My first box was amethyst, an amethyst moon ring and some rough emerald. Amethyst, a favorite of my Pisces soul, is said to be a sleep helper – soothing the mind and the nervous system. I have also found it to be good for dreamwork. Emerald is aligned with the heart chakra and said to be a stone that amplifies love and friendship. I put both of these beside my bed.. it seemed fitting.
As I heard this saying filter across my tiny sphere of existence, I thought – yep, that is DEFINITELY me. I am that person, even to my own detriment, who will wear themselves down with the compulsion to help/please/fill needs. Often I become quite the Bitter Betty about it. The lesson is that giving should be done freely and without return expectations.
I do realize, of course, that this is not a fair response. After all, did I not give the permission to ask, ask, and even expect? Indeed I did. There is no use being cranky about it, but my ego doesn’t always read the memo.. hence the downward spiral of codependency and apathetic breakups. I am just no good at tribe.
As part of my full moon just past, I decided to explore an expected ritual.. or more that I took this class hoping for inspiration and received the usual cleanse-meditate-release formula. At the onset I was a bit bitchy about it (and the knock to my bank account) but I wound up getting a lot out of it. I had to eat my words.
I took the salt bath and oiled my skin. As I drank my special tea and started the meditation, I quickly found myself wandering off the given path onto my own. I have always been terrible with directions. In my mind’s eye, I pulled the moon’s energy into my body and focused on the drums beating as I walked to meet my ancestors. Bear kept a watchful eye on me along the way.
I asked them what was needed this cycle. The answer was swift – weed out the chatter and listen to the deep within.. boundaries, fear, and the need sickness are holding you. It is a time for shifting. When these unserving become, acknowledge them with gratitude for the lesson and move on. “Don’t dwell”, spoke the oldest woman sharply. She was new to me in this circle.. the hyenas near her were not. I left quickly and made my way back for the work ahead. Oh, and the release? I set to flame those things I was beating myself up with and went in about my evening.
“The eagle is strong medicine. She can soar the great heights and intuit the winds of change while maintaining a clear perspective and grounded connection to the earth”
– The Moon Deck
As part of my new moon work, I am pulling a card and using it to work on self through to the next cycle. This past cycle was all about clarity. The card speaks of the voice that reminds us of who we are, and so started my work..
Who am I?
Am I happy with what I put out into the world?
What am I grateful for?
What do I want to manifest?
How can I do better?
Am I being kind in my actions?
Do I give love?
Do I allow myself to receive love in return?
What ripples am I sending forth?
Who do I choose to be?
I find myself more drawn out of seasonal observances as of late.. at least in terms of the usual. The wheel of the year no longer fits me at the moment, and so I am putting it away for the now. I find myself being called more to the threes of the earth, sea, and sky.. and of course all those natural held within.
Simple ritual has become my focus – going back to my strengths of connection and working intuitively. It is import that I set aside this time, but as important is that I am able to really be present in the work. Super-structured workings have just never been my forte. I started this simple with a revamped meditation practice.. which turned out to be just what was necessary.
“Who is the old woman watching over you.. she seems to be guarding, and there may have been something on/over her head?” This was during the after consultation with the new massage therapist. Honestly I was about to call bullshit.. but then he said, “she smelled like old leaves.” Ahhhhh, I told him.. “Baba, old woman” and I left it at that.
Baba Yaga is ever with me, a constant in my spiritual and at the time I had gotten a bit slack in tending her. I was surprised at her patience and the first thing I did on the dark moon following my return to the work was clean her space, apologize, and offer her a giant glass of whiskey. I expect she is used to one losing their way.